I’m (not) afraid of change
Posted on January 11, 2024
I’m working hard to get my shit together and I am making steady progress but I just can’t get over last winter. I’m kind of looking back and going “holy shit I have no idea how I made it through in one piece” because I went through so much and here I am on the other side of it trying to keep going and actually do better for us. I made the goal of being independent, learning to drive and getting my own place which is going to happen! I’m going to make it happen! It’s very much doable! and I’m moving towards that goal!
I think about that meme I saw on tumblr that said “you are too afraid of change to give yourself the life you deserve but you do deserve it, you can change, you don’t have to do it alone” a lot and yeah I’m doing it scared but I’m not alone and we deserve better. We can’t keep living like we are now and I need to get the fuck out of this house. I have people in my life who are helping me out but honestly I could not have made it this far without my headmates either. I’m grateful to have them in my life and they’re a big motivator since we want to be able to live openly plural with someone else who’s accepting of us, I’m just very excited and having so many good feeling about this right now! Usually I’m not so positive I guess but I just needed to write this down lmao. It’s been bouncing around in my head for the past couple of weeks and it’s helping me stay motivated lately and it’s nice to put it in words.